entry 10: driving home

sorry

Cut the fish open, the angel instructed, and take out its gall bladder, heart, and liver. Keep these with you; they can be used for medicine, but throw away the guts. Tobias did as the angel had told him. Then he cooked the fish, ate part of it, and salted the rest to take along with him. The two continued on together until they were near Media. Then Tobias asked, Azarias, my friend, what diseases can be cured by this gall bladder, heart, and liver?

[23:21] <gabs> Hope youre ok

[23:21] <gabbers> Anyways goodnight

Tuesday, Aug 11

[6:22] <gabbers> Dan

[6:22] <gabbers> When are you coming back?

[6:23] <gabbers> Let's watch The Odyssey together on Imaxxxx bro 

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nightmares of morning.

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these moonlit nights are strangely empty. i called, there is no answer. i was hoping he would answer. i think he used to, all the time back then, im sure of it now. 

hes around. always.hes the only way.

but im not that little boy anymore.

but im really reliving him. havent engaged sharply with my senses until lately.

im living my fear.

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still here.

 i had to be sure.

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ccant stop sneezing and shakinf. forward is the only dirrection.

the only ruin here is myself. 

i knew this was going tobe different but i

of all the shit you see in a trek,supernatural or animal,

an avalanche of everything that has rhe chanxe to kill or go wrong, 

ididnt wxpect to be so afraid of myself. rather,what i dont know about myself.

this will kill me someday.

fear is the only thinf bringinf me forward. curious.