entry 7: rain

its been raining veryyy heavily the past week, so connections a little flimsy and i barely could blog on here,apologies. i havent went outside much either because of this cold-soak weather thatd bypass all my layers of clothing with wetness and icy breeze.

so what is it that i have been up to these days? well im either at Gabriels, pacing in my own home, or browsing the internet for a new rabbit hole to fall into. though i also find myself doing the last two at the other dudes place. Gabs' place warms me, like a fireplace i hover my palms over, or is it the natural presence that the family brings, but i spend my time there more often than not. 

speaking of rabbit holes, we got into a call with another friend of ours, Valentine, and she told me specifically that i shouldnt be using the circle-cross symbol as my trail marker during my trips. said im manifesting this 15 feet tall man who lurks in the woods and crouches in darkness,you might even mistake him for a tree. very appalachianesque.of all people, im not surprised that these kind of things leaves her lips, shes kind of known for stringing red conspiracies in a board and have people nodding rather than arguing. like they do,i mostly shrug her off, but this one particularly interested me. i guess it was the boredom catching up to me, not being able to go out and all, or maybe trips lately have started feeling the same,but i spent a few days looking into this... entity. heres what i found:

1. it goes by different names. lets call him The Man

2. some say its an egyptian god or an eldritch being, whatever it is, it has a following 

3. video/audio distortion or any kind of electrical malfunction signifies that its near

4. faceless (thats what the symbols supposed to represent apparently), wears a black suit, portrayed with lovecraftianlike tentacles 

ive explored places for years now and not once have i ever encountered this thing. which is exactly why i couldnt stop thinking about it. i mean, people always ask if ive seen Bigfoot,ghosts, skinwalkers or some shit the internets obsessing over that month. i havent, and theyve never interested me either, but The Man is different. its presence is shrouded in mystery, it doesnt have a clear story or much of a background. all you see is its "evil" more than what it actually is,its anything the people want it to be, and that in itself makes it a reflection of us and our fears. makes me wonder, yknow

can i find my own The Man? or better, the real one?